The little device of doom

I still remember the time I worshipped the hand phone. How I begged ( & bugged) my parents every single day to get me one. It's funny how I believed that once I get it, my social life would improve on the spot.

Yes, sure it has improved my social life; winning some friends, dates, ons(!) & enemies. Oh, the diversity of the new ppl I meet is so refreshing, & shopping trips with my friends are so much more easier to organize. No more need to sneak around borrowing my parents' phones or using the public phones..hahaha.

The phone has actually brought me more pain than joy. Alright, alright....so a recent bad event had a huge impact on me. Big shit. I'm learning to deal with it all...soon, I can boast about having experienced every single thing a youth of the 21st-century should have...well, it's nothing to be proud of really. I've been more thick-skinned these days...less dependent or obsessive. Just chilling with life...back to depression. The norm. A "happy michelle" just doesn't sound right.

Broken again & again

All the stuff that ever appeared in the media about cheating in relationships emphasize on the pains of the cheated one, & how to deal with the one that cheated. Trust me, it sucks.

But they never did touch on the feelings of the third party. Sigh.

Change of view

Life is sweet. I know it sounds cruel, but I'm happy that most of my fellow course mates came as loners for the March intake. I have this special knack of making friends with these loners, as I was ( & still is sometimes) one of them. I believe in Karma, do unto others what you want done unto you. Unfortunately, I got shunned as the social outcast for many years in primary school, so I feel this kind of responsibility to make sure no one feels like the social outcast...so that no one will turn out like me, the one that was hurt before..well, at least I'm not as alone now as I was in A-levels. Here, I get to meet the international students from India, Dubai, Pakistan that I befriended in early January. And also a church boy who cracks jokes all the time, causing me to hyperventilate & get a mini-heart attack..hahaha. It's so fun being around these people, they never fail to make me laugh.

Oh, have I forgot to mention that I dropped out of A-levels & now doing foundation in ARTS?

The best part about it is that my classes are all at the main block. Which means I don't need to ride on the freaking lift. I've got this fear that the lift will keep going down & down to the center of the earth, stuck in an oven..brr~But anyway, I've only got 3 days of college per week! How cool is that, that a lazy bum like me can bum even more at home..hahaha! Oh yeah, I didn't like A-levels cuz it didn't allow me to be a lazy bum that I am..though I'll miss Literature in english..O how I miss you Miss Caro; my first lesson in intermediate english was about vocabulary. How unchallenging...well, I guess it's fair since most of my classmates come from Chinese-ed. schools. Did I mention that I get permanent classmates from now on? LOVELY!! The second lesson was study skills; with the oh-so-handsome-&-metro-the-guy-that-every-girl-was-gushing-about Mr.Daniel. He asked us what is needed for success. I told him exploitation. Why? (well, in SPM I took advantage of the edu. system by spotting questions..hah! serves them right for making the 'A' so important...oh, taking advantage) Oh, sorry sir..It's carpe diem..seize the moment.

"I aspire to be a failure. If I do become a failure, I'm successful. Even if I don't, I'm still successful."

-From some comic I read in Myc magazine-

Back home

Alright and not so alright...enough for me to get some monetary reward, not enough to apply for a merit scholarship from HELP..sigh. I'll try for the star Education fund scholarship still.

BM-3B, BI SPM(1A) O-lev (1A), Moral 3B, History 2A (huh??), Biology 4B, Chemistry 1A, Physics 1A (yay!!), EST 2A , Maths 1A, Bible Knowledge 5C (haha, as expected), & English Literature 4B (HUH??)

Here's a slight analysis of the year's graphs. Moral exam was relatively easy, so they marked it strictly...(haha, so much for my easy-going plan), History was tough ( for those who didn't spot questions like me, haha) so they marked it easily. There was a lil problem with EST graph...and English Literature?? Don't ask me...just read this old post =)
http://mishieru.blogspot.com/2006/12/michelle-shrink.html

But wait a minute, my english teacher ( and the rest of my English Lit classmates) wants me to appeal for my English Literature grade, she believes that I should get an A for it, she EXPECTED me to get an A for it. So looks like I'll be going back to my hometown soon...

Am I happy? Am I sad? I don't know. I've become emotionless these days already...Ultimately, the nature of this event in certainly keeping up with the blog's title,haha.