2005 at a glance

It's been a hell of a year. Another one more changing points in my life...the fact that I can just talk to ANYONE now.Before this I used to be; having doubts about my confidence, nervous, having stage-frights..blablabla..the list goes on. But now, I have no problem communicating with anyone at all..hahaha~ And I'm actually quite happy with myself now about the way I turned out to be.

The other big turning point in my life was when I was 10 years old. I couldn't find any friends then since I was streamed into the best class..which was notorious for its snobbish & bitchy ( yea, at 10 years old, some girls can be BITCHY) inhabitants. I was feeling alone, an outsider. It's nice knowing that you qualify being in the first class, but I couldn't take it at all.. So I ventured out in the dark side of the town..mixed with new people from other schools. Entered my first ( childish) gang and had my first fight ( and my first defeat).. I built my personality from there. Building a hard shell on the outside was compulsary for me to withstand all the bullying and name-calling.. I grew stronger as the years pass by..with its ups and DOWNS teaching me what to do and not to do. All this play an important role now because it teaches me the do's & don'ts in social interactions without hurting my ego in any way..

Now at 17 years old..as 7 years has passed..I smile when I think of the years I struggle to be known by all, to be popular in my own way..doing things God would frown upon, things my classmates would never approve at any degree at all. I laugh when I think back on how immature my actions and thoughts were in the past. Do I regret? No..though there are some things I wish I could change in my past years...all the bitter sweet crap..hahaha~

January
-Met new classmates. The froghead is unfortunately in the same class with me..
-Joined PTM tuition again for the 4th year..met two people there in which one of them
would change my life forever
-Got fired as the Ketua Hari by the corrupt Libarian AJK

February
-Settled in class comfortably..drifting away from the preppy friends to the fun ones.
-Finally quit church choir ( now I thank myself for that, the CM found someone new to
bully)

March
- School hosted Kajang zone debate..hang out and got closer to the Saujana ppl
-Flunked my theory Grade 8..now I don't know if I should continue or not..

April
-Parents left to Rome for 8 days..8 days of using the net after 12am..hahaha
-HELP institute debate with High school Made 3 new friends! (JH, Ragu & MJ)
-Librarian interview for elections..sucked at it
- Lost terribly to the Yong from High School at scrabble..the rest of the matched were fine.

May- the terrible biking accident..ouch

June
-HELP debate again! The same day my mom went to collect my red-marked report card..
-Got over my 5 year crush! Finally..with some help from MJ

July
-Got elected as the Head Dicipline for school library..bitchin' about it all month..haha
-Stress! Too many exams in a months for me to handle

August
-Less Stage fright after a big blow to my ego
-First time behind a wheel! Go-kart that is..

September
-Finals are near! And as usual Michelle's not prepared for it! ( This year this will
change)

October
-Got caught for skipping class for the second time..Damn PTM
-House got burgled the day he asked me to go out with him..the guilty feeling.ah~
-Became an item with that guy..hehee..some might say we're going a lil' too fast.
-Went to Cambodia..haha..so happy to see Jia Hui jealous..

November
-Went out for movie with a guy for the 1st time!!! Well, in a gang actually
-Mom found out about our relationship..we sorta broke up..lol..
-My birthday passed without much hype.. :p/:(

December
-Officially broke up with the guy..so regretful I didn't do it first..
- Met so many new ppl at Sunny Yee's intensive SPM course..and new numbers in my
phone book..hahahaha~ ;D
-Spent New Year's Eve in the car of my friend while listening to rock junk on her
handphone outside the church

And now it's January 2006...What's a new year without any resolutions?

1-I'm single, hot and ready to mingle...hahaha
2-No more risky, fast relationships..
3-Study on a regular basis & stick to it!!!!
4-Meet more people and go out more..
5-Be nicer..not only in trains and buses..hahaha
6-Save money for shopping and to buy dream handphone (Sony Erricson W800i)
7-Be more active in church..
8-7 has always been my lucky number so I'll stick to it..lol

I just found out that Jia Hui is 16 years old just like me!!!! Well, technicaly, he's 17 this year..but wow..this is shocking to me after all..Damnit, and to think I treated him like a senior..Damn PTS..I could've skipped one year of school as well, but my ickle-fickle mind prevented me..hahaha..

Culture cross

Last Thursday, I (sort of) celebrated the Tang Yuen festival with my mom at home. We didn't really celebrate it in the traditional way..my mother just bought the prepacked rice ball dough from the market and boiled in it sweet pandan-&-rock sugar syrup. Only the both of us ate it. My brother was more interested in his "Judgement Day" show on TechTV. What really made my mother celebrate was the fact that I reminded her days before the festival. She was rather surprised because:

-I was never really keen on it..

-This daughter who isn't really supportive of her own race is suddenly talking about making rice balls..well, they do call me the blood-betrayer.But it was my mother who ignited the flame in me. Yes, I support my Chinese counterparts anytime, but why do you think we're living in Malaysia for? If my mother is thinking of the benefits, she might as well pack her bags and move back to China where our distant relatives are.

My mother discriminates. No, I'm not proud of it at all because I believe we're all the same creatures created by God, in different colours, sizes and personalities. That's all. I mix with my Indian friends and my Malay friends more than I do with my blood cousins? Why? I find that the Indians are the least racist among all the races and that the Malays are more willing to step down from their pedestals and mix with anyone at all! I have some decent Chinese friends who do not discriminate..I guess it's in the blood of most of the orients..don't we just love to critizise? I guess that's my mother's speciality..hahaha.

I'm ranting on my mother on the hope that she finds this post to change her ways once and for all...I'm getting tired of her nagging me on why I have all this weird friends and why I attract the wrong attention all the time..Sorry to those I offended..but I am proud of being a Chinese. Heck, I have the blood of the emperor's imperial warriors..hahaha~

In the past years I'd usually go to my wai poh's house just to savour the sweet rice balls in its delicate pink and white colours. But my (thrifty-minded) mother will just go there because my wai-poh usually prepared lunch with it..Y'kno..the usual Chinese cuisine; braised pork ribs, steamed chicken, fish..Well, compared to my mother's, I wouldn't mind eating my wai-poh's cooking the same thing everyday..I can match her, not my mother..no one could match her in knowing the right amount of ingredients or time needed to prepare the perfect dish..
But this year, I guess she got tired of making the balls ( pardon the pun) so she decided to just make some for praying..I heard from a fellow blogger that the Tang yuen is made as an offering to the messenger in the hope that it will create a good impression of the family when he delivers the message to the heavens..

My family is not really keen on this stuff because we belong to the Christian faith. So I try my best to be proud of my culture I guess. Merry Christmas eve to you all!!
P/s: Do not eat Tang yuen when cold. Disgusting.

It's the season of the year!

Kajang has never been so busy before as far as I remember. The town is infested with people..all typical Malaysians doing their last-minute back to school & Christmas shopping. I've done my Christmas shopping already though this year I started a little later than usual. I know, I know..year-end stuff's prices will cut down with ridiculous discounts and all.
The main point of buying gifts early in the year is for the hope that the recepients would not be able to find out on how much you spent on their gifts AND they cannot make an exchange for what you gave them..(bwahaha)

Time goes too fast though. Next year, I'm already sitting for the big test. SPaM. And ready for my driving license ( no hope to ride a motorbike. The overbearing parents won't let me). But the most important thing is I'm turning 17!The senior year of the goverment schools..That's one more year to the legal age.One more year of school. Sigh..So I decided to make up the most of my school life next year..do everything I wanted to finish before school ends..Have awards and stuff like that. Prepare a list of things to do like the one below...

Things-to-do 2006

1. Get a new knapsack ( mom saw the same design in the market for half the price..dammit)
2. Make sure I'm well known by all in the school.
3. Make sure I'm remembered as the trouble-maker in school..the weird coolest girl..
4.Skip school on purpose. ( the only time I played hookey was language competions & sickdays)
5. Work a little harder on my studies.
6.Start finishing my homework. ( o_0)
7. Make more friends by being friendlier and less sarcastic.

The Blogging on the wall

Recently I've doing nothing much on the world wide web...except visting some excellent sites such as my good friend's blog & the hilarious Mr. Kenny Sia's blog. I've been doing some comparing between their blogs & my blog. Obviously, theirs would beat me hands down. And don't even start on thinking that I could beat Mr. Kenny's blog. His won the best blog of 2005..

Kenny Sia's was voted blog of the year at the recent Project Petaling street (PPS) aniversary gathering. His blog is a hilarious at life ( and sometimes the lives of others in the blogging community) of the kuching Native. Wacky. Funny. Crude.

Jia Hui's didn't win anything yet..he could win something if he joined the list of blogs in PPS.Honestly his blog is very..like him. Smart. Crude. Witty humor. Bizzare. Eccentric (sometimes). Pompous hahaha..He posts about his view on the recent events and things that ought to be looked into. And a bit on himself.

Mine? Is basicly a inview to my life. Nothing else. Why? Because I think my life is different from others, bizzare and unique as I am. And because of (my big fucking egocentric self) because I think that my life is so special, that I should start a blog on it and everyone who visits my blog would know about it. Hah. who am I kidding? Who would want to read on my life? Who would want to read on anyone's life? Usually those people are those with no blogs of their own, or they have nothing else better to do. I'm too lazy to write on a book. I view my blog as a personal diary which i can share with everyone. Shit. i'm contrasting myself again.

Bitter Sweet? SWEET !!!

My first breakup was what most people would desire for. A hassle free, heartbreak free, quick call over the phone. I did cry a bit...but it would be inhuman to not even shew a bit of emotion would it? All it did was a simple phrase of " I don't think we can be together anymore.." It was a bit shocking though. He showed no sign no hints, nothing! I actually thought he was predictable. Guess I was wrong...It all came so sudden. After 1.5 months of being together.. ( some ppl actually thought that was quite long) it just couldn't work out between us I guess. We just weren't compatible with each other. Everything was a blur, everything was happening to fast for me to digest. I only did it for the sake ofbeing in a relationship..as an act of rebellion towards my parents..The only thing I'm regretting now is that I didn't break up with him first...So much for his promise ofbeing my life partner hahaha...we'll just end up being good friends for the rest of our life? No one knows for sure. Now I'm free as a swinging single again..titter, oh the pompous laughter..